Sometimes, more often than not, I get sad and lonely, and I'm not quite sure why. Is this normal? Does everyone out there feel this way? Even very true to You Christians? Or is something wrong with me? Like I've always assumed...
I am so blessed. And I know that. And I know You're there. I know all of this deep down in here, in my heart, in me, in what is me. My crazy family, a couple of good friends, Robert...Oh, God, I am very blessed.
And there's all the different little and big millions of things I'm so thankful for that we all forget about or take for granted most of the time. Thank You.
I know it's mostly my fault, the way I feel. It's gotta be. I don't talk to You often enough. I don't pray every day. I get angry with You. I doubt You sometimes...
I'm so sorry.
I just want everyone to know that I'm ashamed of some things in me. In my thoughts, in my head. And that I'm so far from perfect or okay or any of that crap. I get so afraid and I get so confused about things, and sometimes I don't think I know who I am anymore.
But I do know that God is there for me. Even when I doubt Him. He is there.
Thank You, God.
-ladyworpledinker
